Oh Geez.

Ever see things that just make you go Oh. Geez.

 I do. 

They make me laugh. 

"Buzz, your girlfriend.... WOOF!" 

And last but not least....

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Oh. Geez. 

If you need me . . .

If you need me . . . 

I'll be in the SUN

Walk Away

Dearest Darlingest Eric and Andrew, 

Someday I will see you live again. Someday I'll meet you. You're probably the number one reason that I make it through most days. You're amazing people. I feel like we're best friends even though we've never met. If I could run away with you guys on tour, I would. 

                             Sincerely, 

                                     your future best friend

"Walk Away"

The Scene Aesthetic

We’ve been waiting on a sure sign
Counting down the hours
Life is passing by one day at a time
If we could look away
And see the light on the other side
It takes feeling so small to stop and realize
With a little bit of patience
A little bit of time
We’re the Makers of our days and we’ll decide

If we could walk away
We’d be living up north
On the shores each Sunday
Find our place
We’d be there
If we could leave this state
Build a cabin way up high in the tallest mountains
Find some peace
Make do on our own
When we’ve finally found home

You’ve been feeling like an anchor so alone
At the bottom of the ocean, everybody’s long since sailed back home
I’ve been waiting for a chance to come your way
Lead us somewhere safe with the path that I have made

There’s no distance that I wouldn’t cross
To make you feel a little less alone
There is nothing that I wouldn’t do
To prove to you that I can make us whole

We could live forever building castles out of sand
Holding onto something that may never last
I’d rather live forever knowing that at least we took this chance
So let the tide roll in and take away these plans

Confessions - Of a Tough TIme

I confess... today has been hard. Really, really hard.

I confess... when I got home my roommate came out and cried with me.

I confess... it's nearly impossible to cry around little kids. I still manage to do so but it's hard.

I confess... Aaron Carter had a large role in the past weekend. Between "How I beat Shaq" and his DWTS dance, he cheered me up a little.

I confess... I'm going to try to blog more. It's an outlet. It will help right?

I confess... I don't know the last time I ate a full meal.

I confess... I loved hearing my little niece walk around saying "Kylie, Kylie" all weekend.

I confess... I love how my other niece now calls me Ky instead of Kylie.

I confess... I ditched my phone on and off this last weekend and it helped.

I confess... my 1 yr old niece found her mom's iphone and got into the camera. She took TONS of pictures. I just sat there and watched cause I thought it was funny. Maybe I should've stopped her but I didn't.

I confess... LoVecchio, Tuzzolino, and Watson are all on the protected list. I don't know what this means exactly but I'm guessing it's a good thing.

I confess... I "cleaned out" everything at 1:30 am. I'm done. Got rid of all reminders. I got a small but crucial power boost from an awesome blog my mom showed me. 60 days starts now! I know it will be tough but I can do it. I don't need anyone but my family and friends.

Current Thoughts

I ache. Every part of me.

I'm a mess. I don't understand.

I'm broken hearted. I feel like I have a hole in my chest.

I'm exhausted. Physically and emotionally.

I fell fast. And hard.

I thought he was different.

I'm a person. Not a game.

I'm sad. I can't stop crying.

I did everything I could. Someday my best will be good enough for someone.

I have never had so much faith and hope in something.