Brutal Honesty Hour

Oh hey. If there's one thing that hasn't changed it's the fact that I still don't sleep at night. So, why not do a random blog post that no one will ever read. Found this fun little list on Pinterest and thought it might be fun... Here we go!

A - If I'm in love

In love? no. Do I care about someone an extreme amount and probably someone who I will never be IN love with? yes.

B - Who the last person I talked to on the phone

Hadlie. My BFF since 3rd grade. We keep each other semi-sane.

C - How long it's been since I've kissed somebody

Middle of November.

D - If I have a preference for boys or girls

Not sure what they mean by this one. Relationships? Only guys. Other aspects of life? I like having a nephew and I like having nieces. I like having both guy friends and girl friends. I guess I feel like we all bring a lot of different things to the table and it makes life fun.

E - How many piercings I have

Just one in each ear. Although I have been wanting more. 😬 I mean, how cute is this?

I would never get that many cause I couldn't pull it off, but I think it's cute. Also, with me being SUPER allergic to metal, the chances of me ever getting more piercings is highly unlikely. And I'm a baby and scared it would hurt like hell.

F - hot or cold

I guess in general I would say cold. I don't like hot drinks, I prefer cold weather (hello sweaters!), and I like sleeping in a cold room.

G - the last person I said 'I love you' to

I think my mom.

H - The last person I hugged

I think also my mom.

I - The last time I felt jealous and why

Probably tonight while scrolling through Insta. Fashion bloggers, am I right?! ... perfect body, perfect hair, perfect makeup, perfect job, perfect wardrobe, perfect hubby, perfect life, never a problem in the world. Okay, so that's probably not true, but I give them credit for really keeping their Instagrams lookin fabulous... and totally unbelievable.

J - Are you insecure

Haha... see above answer. YES, so much. It's one of my biggest flaws.

K - What my full name is

Kylie Gwen Maxfield

L - If I have siblings

Yes, one older sister and one older brother.

M - If I forgive betrayal

Oooof. I guess it depends on the situation.

N - Favorite animal

I don't think I have one. I'm honestly not much of an animal person.

O - Where would I like to travel

I really want to go back to the Baltic Sea area. That or Disneyland, let's be real.

P - What kind of music I like

I guess I would say the top charts stuff. Pop. Shocker... I love T-Swift and Ed Sheeran. I also love Parachute. Like a lot. One Republic, Train, Coldplay, Five for Fighting. I just love music in general. If I had to pick between music and tv, I'd pick music.

Q - Favorite flower

I'm not really a flower person. But I guess I'd have to say the classic red roses are always fun to get.

R - Is cheating ever okay

No.

S - 2 habits

I bite my nails or I guess I should say cuticles 😫😩😩 and I crack my neck

T - 3 things I love unconditionally

My family, Bear Lake, Sports

U - Favorite time of year and why

I'm torn. Winter - because of the cute clothes. I'm a sucker for sweaters and boots. Summer - because boating, duh! and Fall - because there's so many fun activities to do, the leaves are beautiful, and again... cute clothes!

V - Big dreams

Biggest is to have my own family - a hubby and kids. And let's be real. At this point that is a BIG dream 😂 I also would love to travel more and have an actual career that I love and am successful in.

W - If I've done something I regret very much

Yes.

X - 3 turn ons

Sense of humor, dresses nicely, not afraid to have fun and be goofy

Y - 3 turn offs

Never says thank you, not able to hold a conversation, immaturity

Z - What excites you

Excitement... jk (thanks Arie!... anyone watch The Bachelor?) I'd say hanging out with friends, my nieces and nephew, any sort of trip - big or small

Well, I don't think that was exactly BRUTAL. Those were pretty basic. But it's a fun little reintroduction to who I am today. Ya know. Since I haven't been around here since Pluto was actually considered a planet. Okay, so it hasn't been THAT long. But still. It's been a while. A long long while.

The Post of Shame

I'm assuming this post is the blogger equivalent to that infamous "walk of shame." I always told myself I should blog again... for no one else but myself. I constantly had tons of thoughts of "this would make a good blog post" and, "that would be a funny blog post." Yeah, well apparently I have had that thought for over a year. Like A. Year. I didn't even realize it was that long until I looked and saw the date of that last post... June 2, 2015. 2015 people. I don't even know what happened haha I guess I got caught up in life? I'm not even sure.  This last year has been a freaking roller coaster. But then again, if it weren't, it wouldn't be called life. So, in theory, I'm back at it. I suppose? I was nominated to start and be in charge of my cousin's blog while she is on her mission and it kind of got me back in the swing of the whole blogging thing again. And let's be honest. It's a good outlet and sounding board. Am I right? So there you have it. I just did the infamous Walk Post of Shame.

And because Friends is literally the best... 

Why I Blog... Or Don't

I've fallen off the blogging bandwagon for the past... I don't know... forever. It's not that I haven't wanted to blog, I just was busy and by the time I thought about sitting down to blog I had other things in mind. It got me thinking about why I started blogging in the first place and why I continued to blog for a few years after I initially started my blog.

When I first started my blog, it was because my sister talked me into it. She was into blogging at the time and it was a fun way to keep tabs on her cute little fam. I don't care how old you get... the younger sister will always think the older sister is the coolest and immediately needs to get a slice of her awesome ideas. Hence the conception of my blog. I jumped into the blogging world.

After a while of blogging my post started to dwindle until I finally stopped blogging. Freshman year of college rolled around and again my sister encouraged me to start blogging again. My best friend also had a blog that she used in the past and it was then that we decided we should start blogging. So we did. It became kind of our "thing". We got a kick-start by doing one of the 30 day blog challenges. I have countless memories of just hanging out on our dorm room beds blogging our little hearts out. It was a lot of fun and one of my favorite and happiest memories from freshman year.

Freshman year got me on a blogging roll and it was a hobby that I loved dearly. I was blogging for me. Strictly for me. This didn't last terribly long and soon I got sucked into the whole blogging community, which I love don't get me wrong, but it changed the reason I was blogging. I became super into others blogs, give-aways, sponsorships, page views, stats, followers, etc. I was blogging for everything except the right reasons. Yes, it was fun to throw myself completely into my blog but I wasn't doing it for the real reasons that I started blogging to begin with.

Unfortunately I've seen this with many blogs lately that I once loved. It seems that everyone is more into making money than actually producing good blog content. It's as if they've turned into nothing but an infomercial and I'm just super not into that. I feel like it's a total sham and you can pretend that you LOVE every single product and that you promise all opinions are your own but I bet that money and free stuff gives you a little push to "like" that product a little more. End rant.

After this stage I blogged because I felt obligated. Simple as that. It makes no sense at all and it's completely stupid and I wish I could explain it more but I can't. There's nothing more to it than that. I eventually stopped blogging mostly when I got busy trying to finish my two degrees, my dad got super sick, I was in the process of purchasing and moving into my first house, and I just got caught up in life.... like we all do.

And now here I am. Back at it... for now. I've graduated and I finally feel like I can start blogging again for what I see as "the right reasons". It's going to be a hobby. Strictly a fun outlet that I can put energy into and write about whatever I want. If people read it, that's great. And if not, that's cool too. I'm blogging for me now. I think it's a good way for me to express myself and it's therapeutic in a way. I'm not going to put pressure on myself about blogging a certain amount of times per week or meeting a quota or anything of that sorts. I feel like I can finally take my blog and make it something I enjoy again and be myself and I'm excited about it.

Farmer Chris: A Serial Kisser AKA Bachelor Week 3

Okay, I've been super super sick lately and didn't even start doing recaps when the season first started. I thought about doing it last week and then it just didn't happen. I almost didn't do it this week either but I thought, why not? It's kind of been a staple on my blog for quite some time now. I know I'm starting on week 3 but this whole consistent blogging thing hasn't been my forte lately. So hopefully we'll get some weekly recaps going. 

The episode starts with Jimmy Kimmel creeping in on a sleeping Farmer Chris. Apparently he’s “taking over” this week and we had no idea because ABC didn’t clue us in at all. He makes an appearance at the mansion and brings out the “amazing jar” and tells them he’s just there to sleep with them all. I wonder how his wife feels about that. He never lets this “joke” go for the rest of the episode. Let's be honest. Chris Harrison doesn't do anything on the show so why in the world would we need a co-host of sorts? If the girls were wondering why the dates weren't as extravagant this week I think they could find the answer by that check in Jimmy Kimmel's pocket. 

Kaitlyn gets the first date card and everyone thinks it is going to be extravagant. Well, they went to Costco. I think the only person who would like this date would be my dad. Costco is the only store he goes to. Anyways, Farmer Chris has probably never seen a store this size since he is from Podunk farm town, population: him. Once he asked where the "toy isle" was I am sure he has never been to Costco before. 

I’m not quite sure what Kaitlyn decided to wear on the date. It was an interesting outfit choice if I do say so myself. She made it clear that she was bummed they went to Costco for their date but if she can’t handle that then she isn’t the one for Farmer Chris. If going to Costco isn’t exciting for her then sitting at home with a weekly trip to the Piggly Wiggly isn’t going to suffice.

They go back to his place and make out and Farmer Chris has lipstick smeared all over his face. It was safe to say his lips were a full on Revlon Strawberry Topaz shade of pink. Jimmy of course has to show up. They cook dinner and Jimmy awkwardly stays the rest of the night. Kaitlyn says she’s into farmers and Jimmy asks her questions about it…

Jimmy: you’ve dated farmers

Kaitlyn: … uhhh yeah……

Jimmy: What kind of farmers were they?

Kaitlyn:…… umm…. Like legit farmers. Like with cows.

Jimmy: So how many farmers have you dated.

Kaitilyn…uhhh just one actually.

Nothing like catching you in your lies Kaitlyn.

Ever since she stepped out of the limo and said something along the lines of “You can plow my field anytime” I haven’t liked Kaitlyn. She’s not very lady like. So on second thought, maybe she does belong in a field in the middle of no where. Anyways, still don’t like her. She also has some really weird choices for tattoo placement.

Group date time….

They have a little farm obstacle course and Carly wins. As her prize she gets a photo op where they dress up like the famous American Gothic painting. Do they realize that in the painting it is supposed to be a farmer and his daughter? Not like husband and wife …. So there’s that.

Carly kisses Farmer Chris during their alone time.

Amber kisses Farmer Chris during their alone time.

Jillian kisses Farmer Chris during their alone time.

Mackenzie, little 21 year old Mackenzie, gets pissed off because he’s kissing other girls. Has she ever seen The Bachelor before? Probably not. it was probably on after her bedtime.  How did she even get cast on this show? She’s 21. 21! And Farmer Chris is 33. 33! I totally understand age gaps in relationships. I do. But the maturity level between 21 and 33 is quite drastic. How she made it on the show and how she is still around is beyond me.

Becca gets the group date rose. I actually really like Becca even though I feel like we haven’t seen much of her yet. One of my top favorites. 

Whitney gets the next one on one date with Farmer Chris. They go to a winery and sit and have awkward conversation and “decide” they’re going to go “crash” this wedding. They go change and get a present… more like the producers handed them one…. And they head off to the reception. And of course they have to make it dramatic by having Farmer Chris say, “we could end up in jail.” hahaha Riiiiiiight. Don't fret Farmer Chris, ABC already made sure it was okay to have you go. 

I’m pretty sure this was super set up… they have video of them at the wedding. Whether it was with an actual camera or a phone is beside the point. If someone was videoing that much, regardless on what device, someone was bound to know. Also the people’s faces weren’t blurred out which means ABC must have gotten their permission. So yeah that was super “spontaneous”! Just like the rest of the show, right? 

I wonder if they paid for Farmer Chris to take dance lessons... because it really paid off. 

It must have been super convenient that they didn’t have another activity planned for that night.

Also I’m pretty sure the song they had playing when they were slow dancing was on previous seasons of this show. Like pretty sure. How could any of us Bachelor fans forget that cringe worthy song? 

Anyways Whitney gets a rose.

Surprise, no cocktail party. Pool party instead. We’ve seen it before.

Ashley I. was super bummed that she couldn’t do her “Kardashian look” tonight. Cue the limo. We’ve had enough of her.

Juelia tells Farmer Chris about how she lost her husband and it was pretty sad.

Cut to commercial break… come back and they pretend that whole depressing conversation didn’t just happen.

Jade gets Farmer Chris to take her to his place. There she decides they need to “test his bed”. Also, did you check out her hooker shoes she brought to the pool party? So they make out while Jillian is awkwardly standing outside in his hot tub, which, by the way, is not filled up with ketchup. Blame Farmer Chris and Kaitlyn for that one. 

Megan, Mackenzie, and Ashley I. go and awkwardly meet up with Jillian and Farmer Chris in the hot tub. The three of them talk about who should get the next alone time and Farmer Chris just sits there awkwardly watching. Man up Farmer Chris and take some initiative. He obviously didn't want to take to any of the three. 

Ashley I. Finally gets her alone time after having a cry fest and she’s happy.

So the kiss count this far if you weren’t keeping track….

Kaitylyn, Carly, Amber, Jillian, Whitney, Britt, Jade, and Ashley I.

I think it’s safe to say that Farmer Chris is a serial kisser compared to previous bachelors. And we thought they were bad. 

Rose Ceremony time… Ashley I. is called last and about craps her pants.

Amber, Trina, and Tracy are sent packing.

2 last things….

1. How is crazy eyed Ashley still around??

And

2. I caught 2 “amazings” that they didn’t ding that stupid bell for. How many did you catch?

Oh, Hey!

Well, it's been a hot minute since I blogged last. It's hard to just jump back in after such a long hiatus. But why not just jump in.

 Let's see.... I disappeared because...

    1) My internship... (to all you Bachelor fans out there) did I mention I got to work with Michelle
        Money? I didn't do much at my internship but it kept me busy for a few hours a week.
    2) Finals - I had finals and papers to write in November. I also had to turn them in earlier than they
        were really due because of reason 3...
    3) Spain! - I spent a good 2 weeks in Spain over Thanksgiving. You bet it was amazing and you bet
        there will be a photo dump post of all the pics from Spain. I've been quite a few places over seas
        and this one is definitely on the top of my list.
    4) The day after I got back from Spain I got an excruciating sore throat. It never went away. I was,
         have been, and still am pretty sick. I've spent the last two days passed out on the couch. Long
         story short I get to get my tonsils out on Feb. 10th.
    5) My sister came from California to visit for Christmas and was here almost the whole month of
         December. Woo woo! It was so much fun. Especially with her 4 little munchkins running
         around... okay well only 3 of them can run. But still.
    6) And lastly, but not leastly (ha) there may be a new special guy friend in my life. And he gets a
          good chunk of my time. And I'm not complaining.


But yeah... I'm back and I have plans to stick around. At least I hope to! I've missed blogging and it feels good to be back!

But We Can't

I've basically been anywhere but here lately. I'll try to explain all that another day. But for now I thought this was too funny to not talk about. So, in case you missed it, we made a landing on a comet. Of course this was super cool but what would this world be without bringing something like this up on social media? With the news of the landing came a hashtag on twitter.

#wecanlandonacometbutwecant

Some of them were pretty great... These are my favorite...

Why I Don't Date

There are many reasons that I don't date, which makes it kind of hard to know where to start. It's not something I've chosen and if it were up to me, I'd be dating a lot. I don't think it's any secret that I am LDS and families and marriage are a large part of our religion. It's pretty stereotypical that people think every single, young, LDS person in Utah gets married before they're twenty. While this may have had more truth to it 10, 20, 30 years ago, it's not that way anymore. While it is true for some people, it is moving far away from that. Lately, I see more people of different religions who seriously date and are in substantial, progressing relationships and as far as I know, they don't have the same amount of encouragement and religious importance placed on it. But, religion aside, overall it's our entire culture that isn't dating. Recently an article came out stating that there are currently more single people in the US than married. Now, I must clarify and say that I'm not dying to get married tomorrow. Far from that actually. But it would be nice to have the occasional night out and get to know people. So what is stopping me from dating? 

It's all just a game 

Dating used to be about spotting the player and avoiding them. Now, the players are the majority and those who take it seriously, the rare and almost extinct, minority. Nobody is looking for a substantial relationship that stems deeper than the "let's maybe hang out sometime" and an occasional noncommittal, nonchalant "what's up" text message. You don't have to look very far to see that playing games is the new "norm". One word, Tinder. This so called "dating" app is in all honesty everything but. The newer version of Hot or Not encourages hook ups based off of a few pictures and a sentence or two about yourself. If you like what you see, swipe right. If not, swipe left. If you swipe right and it's a mutual match, it will pop up and notify you and do you know what it says? 

 - send Lee Mealone a message? 

Or 

- keep playing

Playing! Even Tinder acknowledges that dating is really nothing more than just a game. And you know who wins this game? The person who cares less. The person who plays the other person harder wins. The person who has no investment in anything wins. The person who is not looking for anything wins. The person who puts no feelings or effort in wins. The people who want to date, who want a relationship, who want to meet people, are those who are condemned in the "dating" world. 

No such thing as a date

I can't recall the last time I went on a "date". I could easily tell you the last time I "hung out" with someone I was interested in who was interested in me as well... But it wasn't a "date". He asked me to "hang out". Even though it had many components of a "date", one on one, one person paying, cuddling, hand holding, etc. but when it came time for a second "date" it was only a "want to hang out?"  

As I said earlier, marriage and families are at the center of the LDS religion and as a result it is often encouraged by the church leaders that twenty-somethings stop hanging out and actually date. I recently had a conversation with one of my friends after he went to a meeting where the single guys were encouraged to date. 

Me: how was conference? 

Him: I feel like I've been to better. but overall it was good. The single guys were called out and told to be social and date. 

Me: I'm glad. I feel like guys are too chicken to ask girls out and no one dates anymore. 

Him: I agree. But it's more fun to just hang out and not go out so to say. 

So there you have it. A twenty-something guy flat out admitting that he won't date. 

Apparently, hanging out requires less effort and guts and is the easy way out, which leads me to this...

No relationship = no break-up 

If you're not dating and are only "hanging out" it requires less involvement on your end, and apparently people hate involvement. If you're only hanging out, you're free to come and go as you please. Hang out with them one week, disappear for two and come and go as you please. Want a make-out or cuddle buddy? You have one on hand and when the night is over, you have no obligation to call them or text them tomorrow or the day after cause you're only "hanging out" with one another and not in a relationship or dating them. We have this attitude of people like the "chase" and playing hard to get and coming across as playing it cool or not caring is the best way to land that special someone.  And to those people who view it that way, I say look around, because it's obviously not working. People think that if there isn't a "break up" it will hurt less and it won't be as bad. But, doesn't it hurt just as much to have someone, who you're obviously interested in, randomly disappear and fall off the face of the planet without any sort of explanation? I stray from the majority when I say that I'd rather have a clear answer rather than some pathetic, gutless, complete cop out of a disappearance. 

Too many options 

There are so many people out there yet we choose to be lonely. There are thousands of people on tinder yet it almost encourages extreme pickiness. It is all based off of looks and basically disregards what really makes up a person.  What about personality, life experiences, ambitions, sense of humor? I think we have all met that one person who was no Adam Levine or Carrie Underwood but once we got to know them, they became more attractive as their personality began to show. 

Along the lines of too many options I can't help but think of something we talked about in one of my advertising/marketing classes. Take a shampoo company ... They have over 30 choices and types of shampoo to choose from. The consumer can stand in front of them for 10 minutes and still not know which one to pick or what will be best for them and as a result they walk away, empty handed, no shampoo. 

A world without dating 

I think it's clear that communication has drastically changed from times in the past. We "socialize" through Facebook, Instagram, and text messages. The actual face to face conversations are rare and are becoming more and more avoided. It's easier to say things through a text than to someone's face. There's not as much risk involved. It's easier to "like" someone's status or picture rather than have an actual conversation about what is going on in their life. Since when does a "like" qualify as a friendship? 

With actual human interaction dying down, the old idea of a courtship has died with it. Long gone are the days of actually asking people on dates and persuing them in a straight forward fashion without the chase and the games. I feel like to find these days we'd have to go back to the times of stage coaches and corsets. And unfortunately Back to the Future is only a movie. 

And that my friends, is why I don't date. 

Confessions of an Introvert

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In a world where extroversion is highly valued I find myself a permanent introvert, and I'm okay with that. The word generally has a negative connotation associated with it but I can assure you that it's not always a bad thing. I would say I have been an introvert my entire life and it makes up part of who I am so here they are... my confessions of being an introvert. 

1. If a store is excessively crowded I usually leave no matter how bad I wanted whatever I was there for. Black Friday shopping is especially not my thing. 

2. I love being by myself. I cherish each and every second of my alone time. 

3. Small talk isn't just small talk for me. It's an extremely stressful and anxiety filled situation and my brain basically stops functioning. 

4.  I struggle with being social at school. When I go to school it's basically sit down, take notes, and leave as fast as I can. 

5. I like meeting new people as long as they approach me first.

6. I hate making phone calls, especially if I don't know the person on the other end. I don't really like talking on the phone in general unless I'm in a specific mood. I think texting is usually sufficient but of course there are exceptions to this. 

7. I need downtime to recover after big outings or events so you might not see me for a few days. I'll be around, just not social. 

8. The perfect weekend night is Netflix binging with maybe 1 or 2 other people. I can't even imagine the anxiety attack that would end my world if you put me in a club or serious party scene. 

9. Parties scare me and I dreaded dances in high school more than I care to admit. I didn't go to one girls choice dance. 

10. I'm generally happy even if I don't look like it. That look of my face is me in deep thought and over analyzing everything. That's just me in my own little world. 

11. I may not like talking to every person I see, but I can people watch till the cows come home. Take me to the park and I'll be content watching people stroll by. People are just so fascinating to me. From afar that is. 

12. I get attached to people. I don't open up easily to many people so when I do, I trust that they really care about me and I want them around. 

13. I would rather clean toilets than participate in small group discussions/projects in classes. 

Well there you have it, some more insight into my weird quirks that make me Kylie. Now someone do me a favor and write a "Confessions of an Extrovert" post so I can understand that side a little. ;) 

Currently...

Since my blogging has been SO regular and consistent this past summer I figured a monthly blogging challenge would be the perfect way to jump back into my blogging life that I really do love but just manages to be the first thing shoved aside.  So here we go, Blogtember!

I am currently... 

Watching ---  Psych. Can't say I hate it. Can't say I love it. 

Reading --- a 30 page article about how missing person posters should not have been put up after

                 September, 11th because they "haunted" people and it was avoiding the reality that they "weren't coming home." .... I hate school. 

Listening to ---  Girls Chase Boys  "All the broken hearts in the world still beat... You play me, now I play you too, let's just call it over." AHH  I love it... such a good song! 

Eating --- Nothing. Dinner is the next thing on my to do list. And Rumbi sounds freaking divine! 

Pinning -- Anything fashion related. I'm on a fashion/clothing kick lately. What else is new? 

Missing --- Boating. And hockey. 

Wearing --- Pajamas... and it's 7p.m. on a Saturday. Dang homework! I guess that also means Rumbi won't be happening. 

Drinking --- Water.

Dreading --- Monday.

Needing ---  a new pillow. These 4 dollar ones from Target just aren't cutting it anymore ha. But, I'm too cheap to spend 80 bucks on a freaken pillow. 

Craving --- Shopping. 

and with that said

Wanting ---  

This is sold out everywhere basically. I have the pants that match and I just have to have the coordinating jacket, right?

Happy Weekend!!!! 

Classy

I myself am not a BYU fan and I never will be. However, I know there are BYU fans that do read my blog occasionally and before I throw all this out there I guess I should start by saying I'm not pinning this on the school in anyway. Yes, I don't like BYU. But it wasn't BYU who did this, it was a person. More specifically Max Hall. For those who don't know who he is he was one of the best quarter backs BYU has seen and I'll admit, he was pretty dang impressive. The problem I have with him stemmed from this here video....



Yes. Us Utes are classless. Totally classless and he hates us all.

Again, I will say I am not pinning his comments on the Y. I won't base my judgement on the whole school based on one person. I personally wish Max would have done this and thought it through before he said these things. It wasn't the University of Utah who dumped beer on his family. It was immature people who were being stupid and did a really rude and disrespectful thing. There are disrespectful people everywhere and you can find them at any sporting event regardless of which team they are fans of. Last year I went to the Y for the rivalry game and I'll tell you, I had people heckle me just as much as the Y fans are heckled. F-bombs and all. It's a two way street.

I don't think he thought these comments through and I'm sure he just said them in the heat of the moment but he still referred to anyone even associated with the University of Utah as classless and proclaimed that he hated us all. That's fine. To each their own.

After that he got a ton of crap from the Ute fans because well, we're classless.

Well, Tuesday the news broke that Mr. Classy himself, Max Hall, was arrested in Arizona for what appeared to be shop lifting and when they were searching him found cocaine, needles, a metal spoon, and a lighter.

When I heard this, my first instinct was to laugh. I mean, he was even wearing a BYU t-shirt in his mug shot, was he not? The jokes that could come from this were endless. Karma, right?

That was what I thought for the first few minutes after reading the story. It wasn't long after that that I genuinely felt so heartbroken for him. Thanks to Amazon Prime, I've watched my fair share of the show Intervention, especially lately. To watch and see how wrapped up in drugs people get just makes me sick to my stomach and at the end of every episode the only thing I want to see is that they stayed sober and didn't revert back to their old ways. There's no proof that Max was actually doing drugs, but again from watching Intervention people shoplift all the time as a way to pay for their addiction and the stuff he had in his bag was pretty obviously drug related. In his mug shot he even appeared to be a little loopy. In fact, the longer you look at it the more sad the whole situation becomes. I mean this guy has a career, a wife, and two kids. It's sad that whatever he's going through made him turn to drugs. And now, he has to face the public and the endless comments that are pouring his way. It's scary to think that professional sports play such a large role in addiction and to see just how many professional athletes, current and former, get sucked into the world of addiction. It is such a sad thing to me and I personally wish they would be more concerned about it and do more to prevent it.

I am a die hard Utah fan and I always will be but I genuinely hope he can get his stuff together and get the help he needs for his family's sake.


But until then..... Jimmer better be careful.

16 Life Lessons Learned From The Bachelor

Well look who finally made it back to her blog. Nice of me to show up, right?  To say this summer has been crazy and hectic is an understatement. I think this is the first time in weeks that I have been home longer than 3 days. 

Anyways, we all know that The Bachelor/Bachelorette is a regular topic on this here blog so I figured why not acknowledge all the wonderful things it has taught us through the many seasons. Here we go...

16. Always bring your grandma on your first date 

15. Facial impressions are crucial 

14. Always be yourself 

even if that means wearing a mask the whole time, or a tiara, or being naked, or having vampire fangs

13. Saying "stahhhp" is a flirty way to say don't stop

12. When in doubt cry. Always be in doubt. 

11. The most hated girl will always win

10. When it doesn't work out, keep coming back 

9. It is acceptable to get engaged after 4 weeks of non-exclusive dating

8. If you can't be their favorite one, be the crazy one. 

7. Never show up empty handed 

6. Repeatedly saying it's okay, will in fact make everything okay 

5. First impressions are crucial 

4. Always expose your troubling memories, life experiences, and your past 7 divorces on the first date

3. Never have a normal occupation 

2. If you're innocent, run away

1. To prove your love... always get a tattoo